A Day in my life

I spent the day trying to keep a 20 year old breathing. I am a nurse. Is it my fault she could not breathe? No. Is it my fault she was scared? No. Is it my fault she had leukemia? No. Did I do all I could for her? Yes. But, Where was God. She is 20 years old. She has so much to give yet. Did God want her home with Him for some reason? What was the lesson to be learned here. He always does things for a reason, I just cannot always see it. She fights for every breath as I give her these wonderful drugs that are to help her breath easier. But she does not. The panic comes. The family is anxious. After all she is only 20. They do not want her to struggle like this either. We pray. We ask God to come to earth and heal her. She struggles a little easier now. Will she make it through the night? I do not know. Only God does.